• 5 Years… went by so fast

    This post is already way past due again, but I also didn’t just want to skip it. It’s too important for that.

    On 09/28/2014 it was there – the for me magical day. Before my emigration, I always told myself that I would give myself 5 years – no matter how hard it would get. 5 years before I’d give up; 5 years that I would fight for what I want. As you have all experienced with me, it really was 5 years with a lot of fighting. I have to admit, it was not an easy time for me.

    In between I always had to remind myself of those 5 years. I kept telling myself: Tina, if you don’t have a positive outlook on the future after 5 years, then get the citizenship and go back home again for a while. I have never expected that everything is perfect. I just wanted to know, see and feel that it will get better in the future.

    Interestingly enough everything started to change this year. It definitely wasn’t the magical super year (difficulties will always come along one’s way), but slowly and little by little everything turned out to be good. And then suddenly it was there: D-DAY!

    The 28th was a day like any other and I totally didn’t realize what day it was. In the afternoon then I pre-cooked my meals for the freezer. (I always like to do that with things like rice, quinoa and pasta. It saves a lot of time on hectic days.) So, as I was filling it all in little freezer bags and I was writing the date on the bags for the 20th time, it suddenly “CLICKED”.



    Damn, it is the 28th of September – today 5 years ago I got on a plane with the dog one way to San Diego and with that did the first step on my way to a new life. Suddenly I felt a little weird. One does get a little nostalgic with those kind of things. 🙂

    5 Years ago at Duesseldorf Airport


    But I didn’t really think about it any further at that point. Until I thought about it again in the night in quiet on the couch. With all the difficulties in the last years, I almost expected to be leaving America after 5 years. But now I was sitting there and all I could think was: I’m looking forward to the future! 🙂 It actually made me cry.

    I have found wonderful friends, turned my hobby running into my passion, and now I will start my own business with my new best “American” friend (only to point out that my best friends in Germany will never be substitutable! 🙂 ). I have always wanted my own company and now it will finally happen. I simply can’t go home yet. How stupid would I be, if I went home now?!!

    2014 Soccer World Cup   My new best friend Jessie Love my friends








    NO, my life here is awesome, I am very happy and my adventures are not over yet!!!

    5 years, Tina! 5 years – This is only the beginning!! 


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  • Permission to stay German



    So, here it is… the permission to keep my German citizenship when applying for the American one from the German Federal Administration Office. For $ 5.60 in stamps the German consulate in Los Angeles sent the document to the Honorary Consul here in San Diego, where I could pick it up last Friday.

    So, that means I can finally file for naturalization.  I’ve already found the document that I need for that and I have to fill out 22 pages… YES, 22!! My goodness!

    But well… I should be able to also get that done. 😀 I will keep you in the loop!




  • At Heart… German? American?

    Over the weekend someone asked me if I would ever defend this country as if I were a truly part of it.

    I was asked that question because every once in a while, here and there, I compare things in the US with things in Germany. But this person feels offended by it and has the opinion that I always find something that I don’t like in and about America. Of course, this is not the case! I moved to this country and left mine and my entire family and friends behind. If that doesn’t mean everything!?!

    I think there are lots of great things about the US, but I just haven’t forgotten the good things about Germany either. And every once in a while, especially in moments where I miss my family and friends a little bit more, I notice the not so good things about America or the really good things about Germany a little more. Both countries do have their pros but also their cons. That’s just the way it is!  And I don’t think that I have to like everything about this country.

    So my answer was – to be honest: I don’t think so. I don’t think I will ever feel like an American regardless of how much I like or appreciate this country.

    But who knows… maybe I’m wrong. It might happen… I just don’t think like that now.

    I am really interested, though, how other emigrants feel about this. Has anyone of you gotten so used to a country that you feel like you truly belong there… that you feel like one of them at heart and not just on paper?

  • Greetings from Germany!

    Yes, I’m home. Unbelievable…

    After more than 20 months, I have to admit, it was a really weird feeling to come home. Now, after a few days, I start to get used to it again. Germany is actually really nice. So green… I almost forgot how green it is. There is one bush after another, forest, next to forest, and fields over fields… Awesome! 🙂

    Of course the nicest thing about being home, is being with family and friends. It’s really good to be able to hug them again! 🙂 20 months is definitely a long time.

    My dog Amy is on vacation in Orange County. I took her to Irvine Wednesday night. A good friend and great dog lover is taking care of her. He is a dog trainer and owner of a doggy hotel. I’m happy that I found Herbert. He really knows what he’s doing. Dogs just love him and so does Amy. I feel very comfortable leaving Amy with him. So I don’t have to worry about her at all, when I’m on vacation.

    You know what the best thing is, though? By visiting Germany, I realized that I feel home in San Diego! 🙂